ego

• se-ego ego saya.
• ego lagi babu.
• dia ni seriously.
• i cant win over the ego.
• gggrrrr
• pleaselah.
• lower down your ego.
• please.
• im beggin.
• please.
• manusia pertama yang egonya melebihi saya.
• *except for abahlah kan.
• hish,
• mana boleeeehhh.
• ini melampauu.
• :(

wahai bff

boleh dak?

if tukar url ke, wat private ke.

bagitaw laaaahh kat sayaaaaaaaaa.

nak buka ta boleh. tahuuuuuuuuu.

marah ni.

marah ni.

jumpa naty, aku gigit sekoq sekoq.

cant wait to meet you guysssss.

nak huggggsss!!!

ohh bff, i love you bitches.

baby eus demam

last week, eus demam panas. 

on friday, my sis gets worried as her friends told that a baby is too young to have this ulcer in the mouth.

she said maybe its the HFMD- hand,foot, mouth disease.

all of us were very shocked.

mama cried as soon as she heard the news.

she insists abah to go back to jb.

me siap google n done some research about the disease.

then abah texted, lepas makan, balik umah pack barang then straight to eus.

me n mama lompat2 keriangan. hewhewhew

so on that day, we went to jb after 'packing' (actually main letak je dalam bakul sebab mama abah nak sampay cepat)

when we arrived at the hospital, abg nizam was taking eus for a walk.

so they saw us walking to eus room.

eus called me as soon as he saw me.

'ma tu'

n he grab n hugs me.

i felt like crying!!!!

he still remembers me.

even though we barely can meet.

about half an hour, eus hugs me n dont want anyone else.

then my hands shaken n im afraid if eus would fall so i gave eus to mama.

3 hari eus duduk hospital.

satu minit pun dah buat orang sume risau.

ni kan 3 hari.

sayang please jangan buat maksu risau lagi.

i dont mind if u wanna pull out my hair.

bite my face.

shouting and yelling.

babbling.

bullying.

throwing.

puek balik whatever foods u ate. -_-

i just want you to be happy.

active as u used to be.

i love you very much sayang.

First day- ta sampay hati tengok dia moody. :(

2nd day-night da start active. cuma belum makan je.

2nd day - the only drinks yang bole masuk dalam perut dia. makan tanak. susu tanak. :(

attention seeker

people hate that.

will you stop?

me too.

sometimes i did that.

not purposely.

TAK SENGAJA OKAY.

hewhewhew

sorry if i had done that before.

now i realized how annoyed you can be with theseeee attention seeker.

sorry again.\

my bad.

:D

imissthis.

can i have this,babu?

:)

thesongbyAdele

"One And Only"

You've been on my mind
I grow fonder every day,
Lose myself in time
Just thinking of your face
God only knows
Why it's taken me so long
To let my doubts go
You're the only one that I want

I don't know why I'm scared, I've been here before
Every feeling, every word, I've imagined it all,
You never know if you never try
To forgive your past and simply be mine

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
Promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms
So come on and give me a chance
To prove that I'm the one who can
Walk that mile until the end starts

I've been on your mind
You hang on every word I say
Lose yourself in time at the mention of my name
Will I ever know how it feels to hold you close?
And have you tell me whichever road I choose you'll go

I don't know why I'm scared 'cause I've been here before
Every feeling, every word, I've imagined it all,
You'll never know if you never try
To forgive your past and simply be mine

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
I promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms
So come on and give me a chance
To prove that I'm the one who can
Walk that mile until the end starts

I know it ain't easy
Giving up your heart
I know it ain't easy
Giving up your heart

(Nobody's perfect, trust me I've learned it)
I know it ain't easy, giving up your heart
(Nobody's perfect, trust me I've learned it)
I know it ain't easy, giving up your heart

I know it ain't easy
Giving up your heart
I know it ain't easy
Giving up your heart

So I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
I promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms
So come on and give me a chance
To prove that I'm the one who can
Walk that mile until the end starts
Come on and give me a chance
To prove that I'm the one who can
Walk that mile until the end starts.

can i?  

 :')

season

is this a season for heartbreaks or what?

i dont wanna face it.

its enough.

not ready to face it anymore.

:(

please please please be nice to me.

dont break my heart.

:/

marriage

ramainya yang dah and nak kahwin.

saya juga mahu.

tapi tapi

saya ada macam2 halangan.

T_T

hoping that everything is going to be just fine.

Insyaallah.

the heart

the heart is filled by someone.

someone that she dont know whether she can have him or not.

the heart has try her best to love someone else.

but she never success to love other than him.

the heart keep apologizing to others.

the heart can only like but not love.

expensive memories that i can never afford to buy

you know who you are.

even though i don't know if you ever read my blog or not. 

just wanna thanked you for everything you had did for me.

for being very patience.

for giving those surprises.

for the unforgettable sweetest memories.
for being such a lovely person.
for being most romantic.
for seriously protecting me.
for being very supportive.
for deactivating your number when you're with me.
for keeping your promises.
for trying your best.
for giving me the chance.
for letting me meet your sister's family.
for giving me the best as you can.
for everything.

the memories,
i appreciate it.
wont regret it.
i just love it too much.
will remembers it vividly.





Thank You. :*

him

i'll be seeing him on 29 march.

excited.

but,

scared.

why am i so fat?

why cant i lose my weight easily?

why must i eat?

whyyyyyyyyyyy.

i iz vantz to zlim.

its impossible to slim now.

look at the time dude.

another 10 days left.

T_T

sobsobsob

No more Nini

Im not using 'nini' as my commercialized name in the blogs anymore. 

Insyaallah in any place in the internet too.

The name is very special to me.

 Only special selected  person can call me in that name.

*you know who you are.

 :)

just realized

my age in this blog is still 19 yeras old!

hewhewhew.

im still young.

envy me.

:D

from a shaken hearts

:)
so long bloggie baby.
im sorry for not updating you all this while.
well, since this is my last sem,got so much things to do n to thinks.

i'll be updating you later.
lav you bebeh.
>,<

home alone

yeay
family termasuk ucop sume kua g wedding org belgium n g bird park.
im left alone.
sebab tak sihat.
kenapela ta sihat time2 mcm ni.
haih.
muntah n cherry berry.
kenapepun tataw.
smalam demam panas tetibe.
kenape ehhhhhhhhhhhh
dala sorg je kene mcm ni.
scaryyy pulak.
mintak2 tade pape.
Amin.

u,the first b i had.

imissyou,b.

melatah

hurm. bloggie baby..

memang aku mlatah.

org poke sikit da mlatah.

i will cakap ngarut2 or terkeluar whatever things in my mind or ulang balik ape aku cakap tadi.

tapi

tak sangke pulak yang hati sendiri pun cepat mlatah.

hurm.

maybe aku da melampau kali ni.

aku ego.

aku sedar.

aku unmatured.

hurm.

aku taw aku salah.

tapi nape aku susah sangat nak say sorry even aku dah taw dy ta salah??

nape aku ego sangat dgn dy?

mintak maaf kat blog je bole tak?

tapi macamla u bace kan.

hurm.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

rindunye dekat u!!!!!!

rindu taw rindu.

i unfriend u.

jahatkan i?

i taw.

sebab i ego.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

i suke wat kputusan mlulu.

i menyesal.

i sedih.

i rindu.

i geram.

i cemburu.

i nak u!

kamsahamnida.

cuaeyo.

chengcha chengcha.

saranghae.

benci tapi rindu

tolongla.
sangat sakit okay.
sakit sangat2
u will never know.
i benci u sangat.
sangat benci.
i benci gila.
i benci!!!!!!!!!!!!
bencii!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

bodoh sekali aku ni.

Diana nasution-benci tapi rindu

bila

bila awak rindu,

bila awak perlu,

awak cari saya.

saya TAK kisah.

langsung.

betul TAK kisah.

Dmassiv-Apa salahku

balik jengka.

yeay.yeay. *muka sedih
tanak balik lagi.
nak duk umah.
nak cuti.
bila balik jengka je mama aba mesty g sane sini.
salu gitu.
cemburu betul.
bila orang cuti tade pulak dia nak bawak.
-.-

'Seronok' di jengka

-bawak kereta macam orang tade lesen.

-jalan luas pun ta rety nak balancekan, apetah lagi jalan sempit esp kat jengka tuh.

-nak jimat tataw macam mana. full tank pun 80++.

-nak bayar sewa lagi.

-duit makan yang konpemnya mahal.

-stickerkereta.

-homey like kampung style.

-banyak serangga plus ulat.

-pblanjaan urus sendiri.

-cuci uma sendiri.

-masak sendiri.

serius tataw bole survive atau tak.

serius tanak hadapi.

serius tanak balik.

serius tak tipu.

kbye.

penangan si dia

1. for me, if i said i dont want, it means tanaklah kan? but if dgn si dia, dah nak berjuta kali i tried to buang dia, still,ta dapat jugak. makin nak ada lah.

2.changed. tatawlah kenapa, drpd dulu sampay skrg, im just being myself bila dgn dia. ehem contoh macam baik. ta jerit2. baik gila okay. macam kene tunduk pun ada. -.-

3.improving myself. only he can do it. dorongan n support dia, buatkan saya jd lebih besemangat.kata2 dia buat saya terdiam n berfikir lebih ke arah positif.

4.lebih menyayangi Allah. maybe u don't know a thing pun pasal ni. u don't realize pun yang ni. sebab, makin saya rindu, saya bgtahu pada Allah. n it makes me more tenang. without notice, u've changed me into a different person. i dont know to whom i should tell all this because no one will understand how i felt towards you. even u don't. apatah lagi orang luarkan?

5. sick. haa.yg ni pun u dont know. whenever u tade, saya asyik jatuh sakit. like now. kenapa ya penangan awak ni hebat betul? ke saya yang tak betul ni? ahha

The only you....

to be continued. maybelah. or i should keep all that for myself. adelah rasie2 sikit2. cancel to be continued tuh.
hoho.
now, im just pasrah n redha. i miss you so much. guess i really need u to be by my side. but i cant. and we cant. like u said before, biar masa menentukan. if ada jodoh, ada la kan? i memg heartbroken, tapi bukan dgn org lain. dgn u.
 sjahat2i, snakal2 i.....i pegang kata2 tu..habissla youuuu..haha..
ibenciyousangat2.kbye