Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Le quote


“It's so hard to forget pain, but it's even harder to remember sweetness. We have no scar to show for happiness. We learn so little from peace.” 

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

the pain and the love still there


Ku kesali diriku tuk menyayangi mu

Kata manismu membuat aku percaya kamu
Tak pernah sekalipun membelakangimu
Sumpah setiaku hanya untuk hanya dirimu

Mengapa kau berubah
Cobalah untuk setia
Dan hanya memendam rasa
Tiada kasih tiada cinta

Biarkan aku terus terluka
Biarkan aku terseksa
Sampai bila pun tiada gunanya kau hanya kan mendapat


going no where.

Monday, October 8, 2012

Makbulkan Doaku Wahai Allah

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku,
Ampunkan segala dosaku dan dia Ya Allah.
Tempatkan dia dikalangan para syuhadahmu,
dikalangan orang orang beriman,
Luaskan kubur dan berilah cahaya didalamnya,
Jauhkanlah dia dari diseksa azab kuburmu,
Peliharalah keluarga dan keturunannya.

Ya Allah,
Aku maafkan dia keranamu Ya Allah.
Aku halalkan segalanya Ya Allah.
Bantulah aku hapuskan segala rasaku kepadanya.
hapuskan rasa rinduku.
hapuskan rasa saayangku.
aku ta sanggup dia terseksa kerana aku ya Allah.

Aku redha atas segala dugaanmu.
Aku bersyukur atas segala yang kau berikan.
 Kuatkan aku Ya Allah.
Kuatkan imanku.
Tabahkan hatiku.
Perbanyakkan sabarku.
Tenangkan Kalbuku.
Terangi jiwaku.

Amin.

Rest in peace Sweetheart

sayang.
Dont you get worry about me.
i've been growing up since the day you left.
im mature enough to accept the fact that you've gone.

like what you wanted before.
like what you've keep babling about how immature i was.
i've changed.
Alhamdulillah.

Maybe this is the good things when you left.

why baby.
why did you left.
janji nak kahwin dengan i kan sayang.
kenapa tak tunggu i?
lagi 2 tahun je i habis sayang.

and till now i stil tertanya kenapa you buat macam tu dekat i and kak zura.
apa salah kitorang sayang?
apa plan you?

we both love you very much.
she loves you.
and i love you too.
i love you very much ever since we've known.
6 years sayang.
i couldnt bear the pain.
the pain from loving you.
its killing me day and night sayang.
sumpah sayang i tak tipu.
i ta pernah tipu you.

remember what you said before?
'sayang you, sabar you, setia you. dah cukup membahagiakan i.'
and im glad that you were happy to be with me.
i tak menyesal sebab i've already gave my best for our relationships.
i've tried my best sayang.
Alhamdulillah.


orang kata perasaan marah akan melebihi perasaan sayang kan.
tapi.
i just dont know why.
perasaan sayang i pada you ta terjejas pun.
i kept telling you about curang and sailang and sort of.
sebab i had the instinct about you doing it.
even you punya janji manis and kata kata tu meyakinkan.
but still i dapat rasa.
maybe tu petunjuk dari Allah

im just hoping that you're doing just fine.
before you pergi you buat banyak kerja and penat kan?
now its time for you to rest.
rest well sayang.
Insyaallah i will recite for you.
even bukan hari hari.
but i will.

Arwah Megat Marwan bin Ismail
12 sept 1989-26 aug 2012


Your love remains


Though we'll always be apart
Locked forever in a dream
If I ever love again
Even then, nothing will change

Dear baby

In the sunlight of your smile
In the summer of our life
In the magic of love
Storms above scattered away

Lovers dreaming in the night
Reaching for paradise
But as the dark shadows fade
Love slips away

Built To Last by Melee

I've looked for love in stranger places,
but never found someone like you.
Someone whose smile makes me feel I've been holding back,
and now there's nothing I can't do.

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.

All of our friends saw from the start.
So why didn't we believe it too?
Whoa yeah, now look where you are.
You're in my heart now.
And there's no escaping it for you.

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.

Walking on the hills that night with those fireworks and candlelight
You and I were made to get love right

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.

'Cause you are the sun in my universe,
considered the best when we've felt the worst
and most of all it's built to last.

Thursday, August 30, 2012

sometimes

sometimes im strong.
sometimes im weak.

sometimes i can accept it.
sometimes i just cant.

sometimes i laugh.
sometimes i cried.

Sunday, August 12, 2012

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

I Miss You.


Hai Baby.:)

Please be nice to all of us. :)

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

The Pray

Ya Allah, jika benar dia adalah jodohku,
rapatkanla jiwa kami, jangan lah kau pisahkan kami.
permudahkanlah segala urusan kami,
murahkan rezeki kami,
Sabarkan hati kami,
pulihkan jiwa kami.
Sesungguhnya hanya padamu aku memohon dan beserah ya Allah.

Sunday, July 29, 2012

Love still there

Seems like i couldnt find any reason why am i still in love with you.
i love you but i dont kow why.
why im in love with youuuu?
why?
who the hell are youuu?
why are you doing this to me?
i know, looks like sometimes im a bit crazy.
im sorry.i just cannot help it.
well baby im still unmatured.
i do stupid things. i say lousy things.
i think u couldnt bear it, are you?

im sorry for each looser things i have.
im sorry for loving you.

bak kata J-lo


You think you gotta keep me iced 

You don't 

You think I'm gonna spend your cash 
I won't 
Even if you were broke 
My love don't cost a thing 
If I wanna floss I got my own 
Even if you were broke 
My love don't cost a thing 

All that matter's is 
That you treat me right 
Give me all the things I need 
That money can't buy

-love don't cost a thing,j-lo.

bini First Forever before ramadhan


 Thank You for the wonderful breakfast. 
Hilang stress jumpa korang.
im looking forward to see u guys again.
u guys have my heart.
dont ever return it.
forever.
ilygsm.



Selagi Mampu

Selagi mampu kan ku sabar.
Selagi mampu kan ku tahan.
Selagi mampu kan ku tunggu.
Selagi mampu kan ku lakukan.
Selagi mampu kan ku cinta.
Selagi mampu kan ku setia.
Selagi mampu kan ku sayang.

Friday, July 20, 2012

Hello Kitty Gila Sales 2 Coming Soon!



Another Super Good News to all Hello Kitty Fans!!


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And today…


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Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Persaraan

lepas bersara, dimana kita nak cekau duit untuk life life mendatang?
Buku yang saya baca tadi, ada sesetengah orang yang ada KWSP dan dapat duit pencen.
tapi, KWSP yang ada tu if tak gunakan wisely akan habis juga. sama macam duit pencen, buatnya kerajaan tukar polisi or anything in the future, how and where kita nak dapatkan duit?

Maybe its too early for me to think about this since im still studying and tadak income pun.
but, its never been too early nor too late untuk pendidikan kewangan ini!
Bahkan Donald Trump punya family pun dah ajar pasal Pendidikan kewangan ni time anak anak depa kecik baru lahir lagii tawwwww.

okay back to the story,
how are we gonna live after the age of retirement?
HOW?
Maybe with the saving?
tapi berapa lama sangatlah kita boleh simpan kan?

maybe kita boleh buat some pelaburan, insurans or business.
i still dont have any ideas on my mind.
insyaaallah
bila ada idea bagaimana nak solvekan hal ni saya akan share dengan kenkawan.
hal ni sangat penting sebab lepas kita retire, siapa nak tanggung kita kan?
anak anak mesty dah confirm kahwin or dah ada life sendiri kan.
takan nak susahkan anak anak. 

*hari tu dah jumpa Article pasal topic ni, tapi ta sempat baca and now i dont know where the paper goes.
:(

Pendidikan Kewangan

Pendidikan Kewangan is a very important subject people should learn.
why?
according to Billionaire and Millionnaire dunia, tak silap Donald Trump & Adam Khoo,
without penddikan kewangan kita mudah tertipu oleh penyangak wang.

sape tu penyangak wang?

eg: credit cards, banks and skim cepat kaya.

Donald Trump kata, untuk jadi jutawan ta perlu duit yang banyak. 
tapi memerlukan minda 
minda apa?
Minda jutawan!

kata mereka lagi,  belajar je ape ape ilmu yang ada.
even  u dah nak dekat persaraan.
dont stop learning.
learn new things ta bazir pun.
maybe we can make money from it.

so, lepas habis buku buku yang titew beli hari tu, 
ada dalam 5 6 buah ta sesentuh lagi,
titew nak beli buku bekaitan pendidikan kewangan 
maybe macam pelaburan or kewangan.
maybe buku buku hasil Robert T, Adam Khoo, Tan Sri Bukhary, Donald Trump and sebagainya.

i is vant to learn!
anything i can!
jyeahhh!
nak belajar masak!
jyeahh!
:p

tedetut!

jangan kedekut untuk ilmu, simultaneously jangan kedekut ilmu.
~Donald Trump~

Desperate Housewives

dukacita dimaklumkan DH dah habis beberapa minggu yang lepas.
sedih sangat.
cerita dia sangat kelakar plus ada banyak pengajaran kat situ.
ending dy sangat puas hati, ta macam some of cerita melayu/indon.
menyesal tak tengok bebetul dari season 1.
;/

now if nak tengok lagi, tengok kat 8tv.
tapi ni pun dah nak habis dah.


hoping chanel channel ni akan ulang balik or i will have to download it all back.
tapi titew malas.
:(

paling sedih sebab Mike mati
i like him so much.
dengan badan yew, budi pekerti yew.
haihh.

Friday, July 6, 2012

appreciating

its not hard to appreciate others.
appreciate me please.
i aint easy.
i aint cheap.

waiting

waiting is painful.
but its more hurtful when the person you wait doesn't even noticed about it at all. 

the tears

crying doesn't mean you're weak.
crying doesn't mean you lose.
it means you couldn't bear the pain any longer.

smile

with only a perfect smile, you can hide whatever you felt.
pretend like there's nothing happened.
pretend like you didnt hurt at all when they never really care about you.
its better if u just text-ing them and not talking on the phone or meet face-to-face.
why?
simply because you can hide your tears.

sentence

mean what you've said.
mean it not just simply said it.

dulu dan sekarang

with beloved family

with beloved someone-that-i-used-to-know

skin care review

nowadays, matahari is not as healthy as before.
well, sapa lagi yang buat dia sakit?
HUMANS!
including myself. :/

disebabkan penipisan ozon bumi lalu cahaya matahari terus direct pada kulit manusia.
DANGER! DANGER!
taw apa akan jadi?
macam macam
contohnya, sunburn and the worst part is the skin cancer.

matahari time pukul 11-4/5 petang is actually not very good for our skin.-kata uncle fareed.
better elakkan dari terkena cahaya matahari itu.
tapi acamno, takkan tanak keluar langsung kan.
how nak kerja, shopping, amik anak, anta anak, angkat kain, jemur kain.
oleh itu, we need some PROTECTION!


sekarang dah banyak jual cream untuk sun protection.
for instance, banana boat, nivea and sunplay.

merujuk kepada gambar diatas, i bought it last month.
dekat mydin kuantan for RM26.90 ta silap.

nivea sun ni ada 3 jenis SPF-10,30 and 50.
i chose 50, because i think the higher the SPF is, the higher protection i'll gain.
tapi, pabenda SPF tu pun aku tataw, tak research lagik :/

it says here,
non-sticky, water resistant,advanced collagen protect
so boleh bawak masuk kolam or pantai.
baguih ada collagen protect u know why?
frequent sun exposure akan menyebabkan tangan kita ada WRINKLES! 
we dont want that! we still young!
no wonder my hand sangat macam ada wrinkle and sangat macam im not livin on my age!
hukhuk *drama sat
back to the story,this skin collagen will helps you to prevent the formation of wrinkles.
good isnt it?
we can have the perfect skin which suits to our age.
insyaallah, with Gods will.
Amin.
well, kita hanya merancang, Allah yang tentukan.
but still we need to usaha, and preventing the sickness because mencegah lebih elok daripada mengubati.

From my point of view,
when i wear it, maybe tangan ni bepeluh, so it feels like sticky and quite ta selesa.
tapi kejap je rasa sticky tu.

the smell are nice. ingatkan busuk la sebab dia kind of ubat kan.
but then, bau dia nice, not too strong nor hard.

picit sikit je.
because nowadays im more to baju long sleeve,so i just apply it to the part yang expose.
macam atas tapak tangan and atas tapak kaki.  
may last about 6 month lah if i frequently use. :D

another good news is, its quick absorbed. no need to wait 5 min ka, 20 min ka, 1 hour ka.


oh ye,im sorry i dont know if this product can be use for facial.
sebab i've already wear cream and metap metap, so ta penah la try letak kat muka.

last but not least, i like this product.
its kinda worth it and cheaper than other brands.
elok nak elakkan dari sunburn kerana my skin actually quite sensitive.
cepat je tebako. :(

insyaallah, will try another brand sebab hari tu nampak Sunplay punya SPF 130.
macam best.
naty bila ikut babu jalan, bole la bawak g main pantai dengan babu.
ta perlu risau sunburn lagi.
:D

lei-sein

See bila mapuh(mati)?
rasa macam tanak renew je.
:')


contengan yang tadak seni langsung.
Sorry.
:/

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

kak syu's wedding pics

on the way to hall. kak syu, me and mak andam. :D

acah acah sedih. :p




mas kahwin. mummy yang gubah sendiri. :D



ucop. :D

airis. :D







some of kengkawan waleed

persembahan dari kengkawan waleed


Sunday, July 1, 2012

soon mummy. Insyaallah.

tetiba dy jejelir lidah. ada gaya jadi model ni. hihik.

my face dah macam ape dah. :/


i have no idea ni anak sapa. nama yew pun tetaw. hihik.
tapi kakpah said, ada gaya anak sendiri.
hihik.
>.<
btw, these pic was taken on my sister's wedding. :D

handsome boy

kau ada?

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

babu. :)

Nothing could makes my heart beating like there's no tomorrow than receiving your messages.

sisters

mummy satu anak, bakal ummi, tak kawen lagi. 

cake review

yeay me. my first review.
:D
 
Happy Ice-cream Cake to You
okay, on last 25th of june, i bought a cake from Baskin Robin.
kunun la nak celeb birthday sendiri.
ramai kengkawan duk kepoh pasal kek tu so i thought i wanna try it too as i love BR punya choc mint aiskem jugak.
but then, family pulak ramay ta suka choc mint and ucop pun ada so i change my mind and tukar to chocolate.
so after several changes and perbincangan, muncullah ini:
ice cream: chocolate moose, design brownies




at first, nak potong kek ni quite susah bcause the cake is too hard. :(
aiskrim memang delicious, but the cake.sangat keras, liat, not soft at all. even ucop pun ta suka.
design cake memang semua cecantik. this one brownies ape ta ingat.

unfortunately,my family are looking for the quality of taste, not the appearance esp abah. membebel je dia.
ta sedapla mahal la. :/

so, maybe this is the last time we buy the ice cream cake from BR. But we wont stop buying the marvelous ice cream from BR.Sorry BR, but we still loves you. :)

Monday, June 25, 2012

review

hey baybee.
nowadays banyak blog blog yang salu cite pasal foods, make up, skin care or anything that they've tried. 
or erti kata lain review.
ada jugak some of my friends yang ajak sharing these things cuma ekceli kita ta rety sangat buat review ni
but i will try my best since im on my cuuttiiiiiiii! oh yeah oh yeah! stop.
okay what i meant is i will have much time to blogging! 
bersedia lah bloggie baby menerima tujahan post post dari otak serta hati melalui vena dan darah ke jari jemari hingga ke keyboard.muehehehehe. 
kbye.
lobiu!

kak syu's wedding

okay. yesterday punya yesterday punya story.
24th of june 2012, is my sister, kak syu and waleed's big day.
thanked god,kawen jugak depa akhirnya after so many halangan and problems which i cannot reveal to public.
unfortunately, i didnt get the chance amik gamba on that day sebab camera abah tetiba hang. :(
tapi tapi tidak mengapa cause ada several photographer bertauliah and tak bertauliah, berbayar and ta berbayar yang amik which i believe a high quality  memorable pictures!
naty kita p cilok gambar gambar tu and insyaallah will update to bloggie baby soon.

door gift kaann.
mummy bought jam. jam hat sapu kat roti tu. ada rasa nenas dengan rozel. 
which we wrapped the small bottle of jam with a cute towel and put it in a beautiful box.
botol ke bekas jem tu kecik je and tade tulis pape so i printed some design and kita lekat kat bottle/ bekas tu.ni gambar design yang i've stole from google images then letak some pekataan. hihiks. 
thank you google! you are my number one search engine! i lobyu!






btw, tema wedding wane purple. kak syu punya favourite colour. ;D

babu, take me away

Bawa aku pergi
pacu laju-laju
kita lari dari realiti
bawa aku pergi
pacu laju lagi
malah kita
tak perlu kembali


Tengah malam nanti
tolong jangan lupa
jangan munkir janji
aku dah teruja
sudah cukup lama
aku tunggu saat ini
sejak kali terakhir kau hantar pulang
hidup sungguh sepi
tolong jangan bilang mama
tolong jangan bilang papa
malah jangan bilang teman karibmu
jangan bilang sesiapa


Oh Buku merah jangan lupa bawa
moga-moga belum tamat tempoh
kali ini kita pergi lebih lama
pergi lebih jauh,ayuh


Sumber : http://www.liriklagumuzika.com/2011/12/lirik-lagu-bawaku-pergi-kaka-ft-zizan.html#ixzz1ypCgh8Wv

but then
i know
u know
we know
we couldn't do that
we both have the biggest responsibilities
you and your family
me and my family
hope we will get the Jannah 
patience in facing every circumstances
be together forever after

mudah mudahan Allah permudahkan urusan harian dan perjalanan kita menuju kebahagiaan dunia dan akhirat.

ilysm&imysm.

dear babu. :)




Past loves 

They never got very far


Wall's up, made sure 



I guarded my heart



And I promise I wouldn't do this till 



I knew it was right for me



But no one



No guy that I met before



Could make me 



Feel so right and secure



And have you noticed 



I lose my focus



And the world around me disappears


when we were alone together.

My doubts fade away when we had our first kiss.

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

Thank you sweetheart.
you are always busy.
but you will spent a precious time with me.
even just a single minute.
 single minute tu bagaikan thousand minute.
because u make it special.
u make me smiles
u make me happy.
u make me grin.
u make me jiggle.
u make me laugh.
u make me eat.

u had always make it a romantic time.

thank you.
thank you for appreciating me.


Sunday, June 10, 2012

The Sentence #3

'In everything you do, you must do it perfectly. Give full concentration so that people cannot have the chances to kill you'

By Uncle Fareed,2012.

The Sentence #2

"You can make mistake but you shouldnt be blunder"
by uncle Fareed,2012

*Blunder means repeatedly making the same mistakes

Laura & Daddy Macaroons

zeriouzly! 
my mouth is full with saliva!
very attempting!

macaroons dia.
red velvet cupcake diaa.
rainbow cake diaaa.
oohhhhh

nak orderrr!!!

oh yea, i get to know this business kat tv1 hari tu.
tah macam mana boleh tertengok.
try la cari kat intenetkan blog dia.
sekali jumpa.
pheewww.
memangg nak orderrrr.
just risau pasal delivery and all things.:(

im not used to these online shopping.
nak pegy studio dia jauh sangat.

huhuk.

already think of something for my baby's birthday.
hihik.
hope you will like it sayang.
even lambat lagi, but i've already think about it.
maju kan i?
:p

Saturday, June 9, 2012

Still

 You are still the one that i want after all this years.

Hoping we'll be loving and living together happily ever after.

i love you sweetheart.

Sunday, May 27, 2012

10 Ways to see if you're in love

Copied from Fb
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10. You look around to see if he/she is watching you..
9. You can't help but to flirt..
8. When you catch yourself smiling, you realize you're thinking of them..
7. They try their best to keep you from talking to other guys/girls..
6. When they kiss you, you feel like you've accomplished the world..
5. Their name makes you smile..
4. You dream of them often..
3. You're completely comfortable around them..
2. You don't have anything on your mind when you're with that person..
1. You were thinking of that one person while reading this.



zeriouzly?
most of the numbers really happens to me. 
hikshiks.
number 7 macam tak.  i think because we trust each other. alhamdulillah. 
but act, dia taktaw yang saya ni selalu sedih marah kuciwa bila dia cakap ke komen ke apeke dengan wanita yang lebih dari saya. if pasal kerja tkpe la kan. niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii. hm hm. i cried like a baby. im jelous but didnt tell him. sebab nanty mesty dy mawah. :(




number 10 kan sangat lulz. hari tu watu jumpa, dia drive taw. then, dia nak reverse tetiba kita rasa macam dy tengah tengok kita. so i was like pandangla kat dia. pastu cecepat pandang depan. then dy cakap: tade orang pandang kat u pun. jangan nak perasan. bahahaha. kan dah malu. :p


number 2 sangat betul. macam blur macam eh aku buat macam ni ke. eh? masa bila aku minum air ni? eh kita dah makan ke? bahahaha. 


number 4, setiap masa. even when i was busy doing something, mesty fikiran ni akan menerawang pegy kat dia. :)


totally setuju dengan ape yang i copy ni. :)

true meanings for i love you


♥ It means that I accept you for the person that you are and that I do not wish to change you into someone else.♥

♥ It means that I do not expect perfection from you just as you do not expect it from me.♥

♥ It means that I will love you and stand by you, even through the worst of times.♥

♥ It means loving you when you're in a bad mood or too tired to do the things I want to do.♥

♥ It means loving you when you're down not just when you're fun to be with.♥

♥ It means that I know your deepest secrets and do not judge you for them asking in return only that you do not judge me for mine. ♥

♥ It means that I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love enough not to let go. ♥

♥ It means thinking of you, dreaming of you, wanting and needing you constantly, and hoping that you feel the same way for me..♥

copied form somewhere else
i love you babu.
insyaallah  till forever after.
:)

Dear Babu. can you read this?



I was dreaming about u
I was thinking of u
I was alone but not lonely
U were with me in my thought

I stopped loving only to love u
To be my first love
The first man i say to him i love u from my heart
I burried my feminity , my feelings
Only waiting for u to make them alive
I was saying to u every morning good morning and every night good night

I was praying for u and for us every day
I was speaking to god about u ; god bless him wherever he is
God protect him and give him the patience
God please let us to be together and allow us to grow the love

im still dreaming to be urs forever
To wake up every day with ur breathing on my neck
Ur finger touching my skin
With the feel of ur heart beating with mine
Knowing that i could never find that feeling with anyone other than u

saying: good morning,sayang.
Lets wake up early to not waste any minute of our life together
To make u forget each second of ur past far from me
And i look at u
With a lovely smile
Closing my eyes
A tear drops
Saying in my heart
Thank u god u let my dream comes true ♥ ♥ ♥

The sentence

"Knowledge comes from experience.
Experience comes from mistakes."
-Uncle Farid yang cakap,25 May 2012.

you are so sweet

yeahh.
u there.
u are so sweet.
dont u know that?
every girls fall for u because of ur words.
im envy.
i hate it.
yet, i still falling in love with you over and over again.

our reconciliation time .
thank you.

please stop falling out of me.
im scared.
just dont give up on me.



shopping

hello baby.
u know what.
mostly, the girls love shopping.
me too.
i find shopping can really makes my mind relax and forgetting the unhappy things.
seriously.
i feel happy when i spent my money.
i love buying things for myself n my loved ones.
so, if i ever come back with things that i bought for anyone, it means that person is on my mind when im shop. 
hikshiks.

tapi hat yang tak bestnya,
sometimes i end up buying things that i dont need or ta muat or ta sesway.
senang cite baziirrrr.
:(

tapi tapi
kita suka habiskan duit.
i mean shopping.
 this is the reason why i want to have a work so that i can shop whenever i want.

target sekarang nak beli wallet baru dari carlo rino.
i know wallet dulu pun dari CR n not really good material dy sebab diamond yew ilang. :(
tapi the newest design is seriously soooooooo damnn gorgeous.
i want it.
sekali dengan tote bag diaaaaa.
nak pujuk babu tapi dia macam tanak layan je.
:(
minta kat mama abah konpem jawapan dia: BERAPA BANYAK WANI NAK GUNA BEG NI? WANI TAW TAK MAMA DULU PAKAI BLABLABLABLA. ORANG KAT LUAR TU..BLABLABLA..TENGOK ABAH TA PAKAI BEG PUN BLABLABLA. 

So, okay.
okay
okay.
:(

i'll patiently wait for the sales.
besides, i need a new wallet.
zo zeriouzly, im not waztingz my moneyhh.
 :D


new workplace

last 24 may, i check in to the new workplace. just near my restaurant. selang 2 3 kedai je.
nak minum makan sume pegy merayau kat kedai. hikhik.
onlly have 2 workers there. both of the uncle are very nice.
they both teach me how to do import export.
as i love those admin works, i can easily learn much things form them.
i love working there.
its a waste if i dont go and work there.
still i need to resign soon.
maybe.
for some reason.
:(

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

insecure

hey awak disana.
nampak ni saya pakay tulisan warna merah.
maksudnya saya marah serta cemburu dengan awak.
saya rasa awak sangat perfect.
saya rasa sangat cemburu.
mesti awak bangga if awak taw saya cemburu dengan awak.
tapi saya tak kenal awak,
awak tak kenal saya.
tapi saya stalk awak melalui dia.
saya sangat cemburu bila lihat ada komen awak.
saya taktaw kenapa saya boleh rasa macam tu.
mungkinkah saya juga suka pada awak?
tapi awak wanita.
oh tidak.
mungkin saya hanya cemburu melihat awak di wall dia.
sometimes saya harap awak cepat kahwin bersama jejaka lain.
baru saya tidak merasa insecure.
saya tahu itu maknanya saya pentingkan diri.

well i know.
i am.
im sorry.
i love him too much.
i cant stand seeing him with anyone else.
for now, i think if i dont have iman, i'll kill myself than to see him with another woman.
may Allah bless me and give me the strength and patience.

peminat tegar

hey bloggie baby.
u know what,
i just realized that im not a peminat of anything or anyone.

bila orang tanya, kau suka artis mana?
mesty aku macam terpikir pikir. sape eh?
suka memang suka kat retis or something tu, tapi nak kata minat entahlah.

some of my clique, depa siap ingat hat ni group mana, bdday bila, makan apa, tinggal mana.

so hal ni telah bermain main difikiran aku about a week.
aku ni seorang yang malas ambil kisah ke?
atau aku ni memang seorang pemalas? yang ni meme betul.hewhew

so i guess, aku ni meme pemalas nak amik taw hal banyak perkara.
things that dont really affect my life.
tapi gossips rajin pulak nak dengar kan.:p

i cannot be like this.
hal am pun banyak gila taktaw.
geografi lagi paling benci subjek tuh.
nasib dapat B dalam pmr.

insyaallah will improve my life from now on.
jyeahh marilah kita gigih berusaha ke arah ilmu. ;)

hello kitty

sukacita dimaklumkan.
saya memang suka hello kitty kerana ia sangat comel.
saya suka bukan taksub.
saya cuma tahu sikit sikit je pasal hello kitty.
so please dont expect me to know much about her.
sorry for disappointing you.
janganla herdik saya macam tu.
kesok hati tahu tak?
:(

Sunday, May 13, 2012

the pray

Ya Allah ya tuhanku, jika dia adalah jodoh yang telah kau tetapkan untuk aku, kau lembutkanlah hati dia Ya Allah, kau satukanlah hati dia dan hati aku Ya Allah. Jika dia bukan untuk aku, kau tabahkanlah hati aku, kau kuatkanlah imanku, kau temukanlah aku dengan jodoh yang baik dunia akhirat.

what should i do?

i couldnt let u go.
its painful.
seems like ur going.
like ur letting me go.
what should i do?

i will never find someone like u.
because.
there is no one like u.
no one can be u.
what should i do?

i love you too much.
i miss you very much.
every single day keep thinking of u.
what should i do?

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

im sorry

i need a guy not a boy to complete my life. im sorry.i didnt mean to hurt you. i want a stable life. it may not be a perfect one but i just wanna be happy. im not saying im matured. i just need someone who can protect me.who will give all his love to me, just me.  im sorry again.

guys vs girls

Girls.
sebusy mana pun dia, if dy dah sayang sangat kat someone, she will try her best to have some time with the loved ones. before tidur la biasanya. because he is the one she think about before and after sleep.

Guys.
sebusy mana pun dia, he will find the ample time for himselves. maybe time for smoking, manicure, pedicure or anything untuk diri sendiri.


Sunday, May 6, 2012

determination


hey blogie baby.
taw dak determination tu ape?
it means ketabahan.

many people seems or tends not to know that they are a determine person.
orang lain yang biasanya akan perasan.
as im getting older.
im realizing people around me ramai yang sangat tabah dalam menghadapi life diorang. so, here's several example people yang very close arounds me.

1. Mama
mama sangat tabah since she was a small kids. jaga adik2 as she s the first daughter. jaga families. baru berapa tahun da pandai masak. aku ni yang 21 buka api pun ta rety. -_-
then married to abah. sampay sekarang ta penah dengar mama gaduh jerit2 kat abah. still mama tabah layan kerenah abah.
bukan takat perangai abah, perangai anak2 yang macam ragam yang ta abis2 dengan masalah.
yang ni okay, yang tu pulak buat hal.
never ever see mama give up.
nak tengok mama nangis pun payah sangat.
so if mama nangis that means she really stress or sad.or ta dapat nak tanggung dah.
i love you mama.

2.babu
he's been through too many things in his life.  ni kalau orang buat satu buku pun maybe ta bole abis.
sedih, gembira, tawa,kecewa. he kept that alone. 
he never show to people that he's weak. 
weaknesses dia pun orang payah nak taw.
he has a lot of things crumbled in his mind.
you'll never know.
he's unpredictable.
nampak macam happy but deep inside he's not.
tapi nak tengok dia sedih, or show his sadness, maybe special person je kot bole tengok.
i dont know if theres a person yang pernah tengok dia sedih.
i think for me penah sekali je kot dy nangis tu pun kejap je. tapi tu cerita lama lah.
he's not weird but he is different and special.

3.bff-ians
each of us has different stories to tell. 
for example:
 Anna honey. i saw how she's hurt by the person she love.  she changed a lot. she become more matured and wiser now. memeang la zaman sekolah maybe macam cinta monyet or whatsoever. but it gave a huge impact to her. i saw her glorious eyes yang bersinar2 each time she tells her love life stories. so i know exactly how dia sangat hurt when she brokes up.

Mary ma. nampak macam gila gila. but deep inside who knows? cinta pertama since form 2. even da banyak kali being cheated, she keeps giving that guy chances. sapa yang ta sakit hati kan. i think bukan takat sakit hati, sakit everythingg. padan muka kau mat sape suh ta hargai, now she met someone yang deeply in love with her and couldnt even live without her. 


4. best friend-akem
tekejut tak dia ni bestfriend cek?
memang la ex saya but tu cerita lama zaman beruk beruk dulu.
okay leave that stories behind.
kenapa dia ni tabah?
even dia ni players afzan. *popular seyh kat budak afzan yang sekolah seme pempuan tu. bahaha
people thought dia ni players je. tapi tataw the stories behind his act.
he lose peoples that he loves most.As far as i know, his late mom and 2 brothers.
he's been hurt by the woman that he's crazily in love with.
maybe its a karma or bak kata farah cukup 44 kali pempuan doakan dia, jadila bende2 buruk tu pada dia.
hewhew. idk. ta berani nak komen ape2.
but that one girl yang hurt dia memang rugi la.
he's a perfect man to be with.

okay conclusionnya disini, everyone has their own stories. ada yang sama ada yang berbeza. everyone is tabah by their own way. this is why we shouldnt give up. believe it, there's another people yang hadapi greater ujian dari kita. there's a lot to tell, bole pecah keybard ni if nak cita life sorang2.

 notes to myself jugak., each time im having problems, i keep wondering and i was like am i the only one yang hadapi bende ni? i once google pasal things that related to my problems taw. macam bengong, tadak motif pun. hewhew.

 Now im trying a lot to push myself. i wanna know whare exactly is my limits. 
i wanna be as tabah like people arounds me.
brave enough to face my problems.
brave enough to do all sorts of things.
so that i will have the memories.
pengalaman.
so that i wont regret when im old.
i have better interesting stories to tell to my next generations.

jauh berangan is it?
well this is me. 
;)
so long sayang.